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A feeling of mine back in February

Back from A & E shift. The dispenser was somebody who has the wisdom.

 

Thing in life are very funny sometime. When you are not hoping on it will come to you. But when you demand on it, it will somehow go further away.

 

We need to have a second thought on top of our ordinary thought. It is to note the thinking of ourselves. This may make us aware of thing we going to do, decision we going to make.

 

Life is a cycle. I know someone who lives negatively; he said the world is not as beautiful as I think. But another man told me, I feel it is very attractive to me. He appreciate thing in his life, without any feeling of insufficiency. End up most of the good thing attracted to him. May be we can view it as a ball phenomena. When we give force to the ball, the energy for the ball to return back is same as the energy we apply. It is the 3rd Newton law: F = -F (equal in magnitude, and in opposite directions.)

 

It is the law. May be some of you may say, if we doing something just to hope for return that is wrong!! Of course, when we explain about this, is because the whole phenomena are seen. But we are not asking everyone to do it just to see the return. We just explain retrospectively.

 

However, do whatever with your heart. Deep from your heart!

 

By Sam 1/2/2009

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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It was me early in the morning!!

now the time, 6.45am. i woke up at 4.30am…to prepare breakfast. hope my mum take it….with the soft music whispering around my ear, i feel really relax and free….this is what i wanted all this while.

no pressure…

no sadness…

no anger…

no jealous…

these music are from my friend, i really enjoy….the music make me feel harmonic….meanwhile, i heard of the nature’s voice, and enjoy the naked mother of nature!

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现在的我

回头望一望。。。我发现原来我很幸福!曾经哭痛到极点,生气,恨。。。然而,这些都是我的人生武器!让我哭的人,就是那些准备武器给我的出产商。让我恨,让我伤心的人,是我一生的贵人。就因为如此,我从不考虑怀恨在心,反而应该多多感谢你们让我学习很多道理!拿起,放下,是需要很多的努力,在这里,时间是关键.

上天曾经把我丢在一团糟里。他要我挣扎,要我找寻自己的解决方案。这些时候真的不容易。。也让我懂得感谢朋友的存在。这一团糟,有好几个人与我共同挣扎。现在,我已经从那个地方爬了起来,回头看,他们还在那里挣扎。朋友,我的经验告诉我,走了出来,这世界是多么的美好,还有好多好多让我们去体验的。我好想你们也参与我一起感受这美丽的宇宙。这些日子,说长不长,说短不短,但我知道我已经走了好远!

朋友,你们一起来好吗?我能牵着你。

当然,我也不会忘记给与我欢笑和开心的人,你们增添我人生的色彩。让我开心的,我很想说,谢谢你,很高兴能够认识您.

some of you may not understand mandarin, i just want to let u know that i am very happy at the moment…! thanks GOD thanks everyone!

By Sam

 

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sam does feel it

Today…was a down day for me. Somehow there is something keep running in my heart… the feeling was really clear. I Know, I cant b influenced. So I try to be happy. That sounds easy, but hard to practice. Once nothing interrupting, the feeling come back…

 

I don’t know what I can do. Should I let all the thing happened to me freely? Should I control on it? Kind of tough!

 

If you read my entry may be u will feel that I am the one who can decide my own life. But friends, I got so much unpleasant experiences, not everything planned will turn out the same way it does. Look at myself I know I am scare….fear….

 

If I just follow my real feeling, is that right? I know no body can answer me….

Of course finally something had comfort me, is just a smile when I get mad. That really increases my mood. Thanks for the smile…something so special!

 

 

 

 

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The Movie yesterday…..

i wacthed a movie yesterday with my group of fren rather than colleagues…the movie made me think alot.

Initially, there is a guy…a very good guy i should say (i heard my fren said: this is good one), has a lovely gf. let me describe him. he is very responsible (he thought that), friendly guy and just normal a guy who like to lie! He thought that he do not want to hurt ppl around him…somehow he was forced to marry wit the gf. there is another attractive gal appear in the midst and…he got the strong feeling but he has to control himself….but he is structured to be like this…..things happened, and because he felt that do not want to hurt the gf….the choose to hide the real feeling.. …..and finally try to lie. but end up everything in the mess…..so wil u still labelled him as a good guy ? but he is from the begining part……

I start to think what is the definition of a good guy?

the other guy in the movie doesnt commited to any1…but flirting around….after ONS he will quickly end the matter and ignore. these type of guys are usually labelled as bad. But I think he got nothing better than the guy above but also nothing worse than the guy above!

so, my fren, if you are a girl, what type of guy u want? the one flirting around? or the one so call good guy and do not want to hurt ppl…but end-up mess everything!?

As for me, the movie make me think alot….coz a good guy can finally turn out to b labelled as bad…..somehow…..i forbia on relationship!

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Something importance !

today i went  to jonker street to support my best fren performance. i smile when look at her singing and the beautiful melody, althoguh i am alone. Their voice were just very soothing, very nice.

My sis met me, and we went to a cafe nearby, and continue to enjoy the performance. after everything finish, the singer in the cafe started to play their own song. there were many uncle and auntie, they dance….look at their hapy face, i was also infected to smile and follow the rhythm.

something came accross me. i suddenly got another feeling. then it start to influence my feeling tonight…….

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是懂非懂

最近有个想法。觉得每一件事情想要成功就要有技巧!虽然技巧不能包括全部,可是他是最好的面对方式。这好比人生。有些事情,如果不知道会好过知道可是又被逼装不知道。

 

就譬如考试:如果我们盲目地把每一页都背完这不是技巧,只是应该。真正的技巧是认清什么是有需要的,什么事不需要的。这样你才能够捉摸考试的回答方式而不是到时才手忙脚乱的不知从何写起从何下笔。

 

人生也是如此:不是每一件是我们都要知道得一清二楚。虽然每一件事情的经过,照理来说,处于那个身份的你是必须要知道得,但是,有些时候,知道了未必会带来好的结果。相反的,如果不知道些局反而会是快乐的。能捉摸这宇宙的运作就能离开那些你不想要的。

 

最近,经过一些人事物。人,真的可以很可怕!原以为他们是好的,可以一夜之间180度的让我认清真相!我宁愿一开始认识的你就是那样了。或许应该说,我宁愿不知道那个真相!(就好像考试那样)

 

然而,曾经走过那段沧伤道路的我,如今面对这些事,我只希望我可以永远成为局外人,不想参与这些懊恼的事。

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yesterday, 28/3/2009

yesterday was the world alert date for global warming and we were asked to off the lights. I respect those who really did it yesterday, and would like to pay a vry high gratitude to the person who start the idea. we have done that successfully. Not only that, the meaning behind the action were also appreciated.

1) some of the people out there said: “if i am aware of, them i no need to do that , because it is just a awareness action.”

–>let me voice my opinion here. Although we aware, as  part of the world i still strongly feel that we need to do that. if each of us off the lights, we will contribute to the darkness being created. then those ppl who are nt alert will also be influenced by the darkness night! Somehow we could also help arise the awareness to people we not recognise…although it is just 0.0001%.

2) some say: ” i dont think this is a benefit action, if we want to save the earth, we should do it everyday, not just that hour!”

–> i feel disapointed to the person who said this, somemore she is a profession. i agree if we want to recycle, to save the earth, it must be done everyday, since u say need to be everyday, why dont u also off for this one hour, is also part of everyday?!! why u want to fight for the difference opinions? if other do not do that everyday, but atleast they wil do for just this one hour, it is better than nothing!

3) some said:”why i should off, i am sure the hospital not off the lights and also u see, the roadside lamp is on! u see, the people opposite still on their light!”

–>yes, not everyone will follow. especially hospital, the patients need the current for their disease management, lamp roadside is for safety purpose! that is why if we could, we must off it to reserve the rest for those who really need it or for the time when desperate on it! Doesnt mean that other people nt obey, then we must followtheir step, if we already recognise and weigh the pros and cons.

4) some said:” do u think it really make a changes? it really save the earth? is it significant? you are a science student u should know how seroius the condition now and how to weigh the significant, the P value is definitely > 0.05, which mean not significant at all!!”

–> no matter how serious now, as for me, everyone of us can make a changes. you n me can contribute, although not significant. The P value is just to measure something in group. to those that ur mindset is same as the person number 4, i would like to ask u something. if u think it is not significant, then u can just ignore ur love one if he/she died. it is because the world so big, the population so huge, if died one or two sure not making any difference to the world population, it is not significant at all! dont u feel what I mentioned above was too much?! let think for other people, but not only your own self:) sorry if offended.

this is what in my mind all the while. i understand that there is something unavoidable, we can just try our best and reserve some for those unavoidable one right?! if u forget, dont worry, keep trying, we will reach the success one day…everything come our own single heart, so, you are very significance. let’s LOVE !

-Sam-

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….A song…..

I don’t know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you’ll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
‘Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don’t you know that I do)
And you’ll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It’s a touch when I feel bad
It’s a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
‘Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don’t you know that I do)
And you’ll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we’re the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I’ll give you my best
Everyday I love you

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The little Nyonya.

i have a nice drama acompany me through the weekend holiday. it is named- the little nyonya. i have learn alot about the source of our ancestor. hehe…coz i also inherit baba’s blood. i have learned the culture on baba & nyonya, and start to admire the nyonya look and their ability in managing their house and family.

from the drama, may b most of u may think that how great the nyonya are, how tough she go through….and how bad, how ego and how those old nyonya were before the japanese invade the life of baba & Nyonya. but one more i realise, how useless a men can be, how selfish they are and how weak of them in controling their own body!! this point may b neglected bcoz their role are not that extremely shown, but all their bad qualities were actually source of all the unfortunate consequences.

if were to explain it, may b it take me a vy long page. So i will just suggest you to enjoy it yourself, learn it your own and digest it as source of your life’s lesson. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GErrCpysark

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