Today…was a down day for me. Somehow there is something keep running in my heart… the feeling was really clear. I Know, I cant b influenced. So I try to be happy. That sounds easy, but hard to practice. Once nothing interrupting, the feeling come back…
I don’t know what I can do. Should I let all the thing happened to me freely? Should I control on it? Kind of tough!
If you read my entry may be u will feel that I am the one who can decide my own life. But friends, I got so much unpleasant experiences, not everything planned will turn out the same way it does. Look at myself I know I am scare….fear….
If I just follow my real feeling, is that right? I know no body can answer me….
Of course finally something had comfort me, is just a smile when I get mad. That really increases my mood. Thanks for the smile…something so special!
i wacthed a movie yesterday with my group of fren rather than colleagues…the movie made me think alot.
Initially, there is a guy…a very good guy i should say (i heard my fren said: this is good one), has a lovely gf. let me describe him. he is very responsible (he thought that), friendly guy and just normal a guy who like to lie! He thought that he do not want to hurt ppl around him…somehow he was forced to marry wit the gf. there is another attractive gal appear in the midst and…he got the strong feeling but he has to control himself….but he is structured to be like this…..things happened, and because he felt that do not want to hurt the gf….the choose to hide the real feeling.. …..and finally try to lie. but end up everything in the mess…..so wil u still labelled him as a good guy ? but he is from the begining part……
I start to think what is the definition of a good guy?
the other guy in the movie doesnt commited to any1…but flirting around….after ONS he will quickly end the matter and ignore. these type of guys are usually labelled as bad. But I think he got nothing better than the guy above but also nothing worse than the guy above!
so, my fren, if you are a girl, what type of guy u want? the one flirting around? or the one so call good guy and do not want to hurt ppl…but end-up mess everything!?
As for me, the movie make me think alot….coz a good guy can finally turn out to b labelled as bad…..somehow…..i forbia on relationship!
today i went to jonker street to support my best fren performance. i smile when look at her singing and the beautiful melody, althoguh i am alone. Their voice were just very soothing, very nice.
My sis met me, and we went to a cafe nearby, and continue to enjoy the performance. after everything finish, the singer in the cafe started to play their own song. there were many uncle and auntie, they dance….look at their hapy face, i was also infected to smile and follow the rhythm.
something came accross me. i suddenly got another feeling. then it start to influence my feeling tonight…….
最近有个想法。觉得每一件事情想要成功就要有技巧！虽然技巧不能包括全部，可是他是最好的面对方式。这好比人生。有些事情，如果不知道会好过知道可是又被逼装不知道。
就譬如考试：如果我们盲目地把每一页都背完这不是技巧，只是应该。真正的技巧是认清什么是有需要的，什么事不需要的。这样你才能够捉摸考试的回答方式而不是到时才手忙脚乱的不知从何写起从何下笔。
人生也是如此：不是每一件是我们都要知道得一清二楚。虽然每一件事情的经过，照理来说，处于那个身份的你是必须要知道得，但是，有些时候，知道了未必会带来好的结果。相反的，如果不知道些局反而会是快乐的。能捉摸这宇宙的运作就能离开那些你不想要的。
最近，经过一些人事物。人，真的可以很可怕！原以为他们是好的，可以一夜之间180度的让我认清真相！我宁愿一开始认识的你就是那样了。或许应该说，我宁愿不知道那个真相！（就好像考试那样）
然而，曾经走过那段沧伤道路的我，如今面对这些事，我只希望我可以永远成为局外人，不想参与这些懊恼的事。
